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Us Against The World Pt 1

Mon, 26 Nov 2007 22:47:16 GMT

So heres the forst part for my new tribe fic which is slash (of course) and is Ved/Jack. The fic is set in the real world and where a fic normally goes from point A to B this fic doesnt, it jumps around, picking out points of Jack and Ved's relationship over the years. Anyway here is the first part :D Please let me know what you think..and I have no idea why I'm so obbessed with the idea of Jack and Ved at the moment lol.

Jack had always believed that Christmas was magical. There wasn’t one single part of Christmas that Jack didn’t like. He liked everything from preparing the Christmas meal, to unwrapping presents and to finally falling asleep on the sofa while watching cheesy TV, yes as far as Jack was concerned, Christmas was the best time of the year and something to always look forward to.

But this Christmas was different, he wouldn’t be spending it with his family, he wouldn’t be there to watch his little brothers face light up when he opens his presents, he wouldn’t be there to play cards with his granddad and let him win no matter now drunk his granddad was, he wouldn’t be woken up to the sound of his younger siblings opening their stoking at one in the morning, he would be spending Christmas day without his family this year.

Washing up the last couple of glasses, Jack relaxed into his lover’s arms as they snaked around his waist and a soft kiss was placed on his bare collar bone and Jack knew that although he wouldn’t be spending Christmas with his family he would be spending it with the guy he loved.

Ved was the reason he was no longer allowed into his family home or allowed to see his brothers and sisters and it broke Jack’s heart, as far as his dad was concerned Jack no longer existed and was no longer part of the family.

“Coming to bed?” Ved whispered into Jack’s ear.

“In a minute,” Jack replied hoping that Ved wouldn’t notice that he was crying, cause it was something he had been doing a lot since his mother left a message on the answer phone explaining how he wasn’t welcomed home for Christmas.

“Don’t be too long,” Ved explained and as he spoke, Jack could feel his smile against his skin, “Cause I wanna give you an early present!”

“I won’t be,” Jack whispered back as Ved placed another kiss on his shoulder before walking towards the bedroom. Although he wouldn’t be having his usual Christmas this year, Jack still believed it would be magical, even more this year as he would be waking up in the arms of his lover.

Stupid phone shop

Tue, 20 Nov 2007 15:02:38 GMT

Ok...so I'm slighty stressed right now becuase on sat I went to a phone shop to get a contract phone and you know that was fine and everything but they didn't have the phone I wasn't in stock and they told me they would have it by today for me to have to collect....so I went to get my phone and they turn around and said "Oh sorry we forgot to tell you that your phone won't be in till 2morrow" god how annoying and tomorrow I go back to work so I got to beg either my mum or dad to go and get it for me.....grrr

Tribe one shot.

Mon, 19 Nov 2007 15:31:59 GMT

Now I'm not normally into Incest but with the stroyline going on at the moment in Hollyoaks it made me want to write a incest tribe stroy and what better one then with Jay and Ved. Anyway I hop you like it :D

Title: Five times Jay and Ved kissed
Pairing: Jay/Ved
Fandom: The tribe
Warning: Slash and incest
Word count: 2, 353

One:

The first time was when their mother caught the virus, their father had left and it was down to the two boys to sit by their mothers side as the doctor explained there was nothing they could do for her and that it was only a matter of days before she would die.
Ved was the first one to remove himself from the room after the doctor had left, he made up a poor excuse saying that he needed the toilet and if it wasn’t for the tears begging to escape his chocolate coloured eyes, Jay wouldn’t have thought anymore of it.
As his mother slipped of into a deep sleep, Jay gently placed her hand onto her chest and left the room in search of his brother.
Making his way across the darken hallway, he pressed his ear against his brothers door and listened as his brother cried into his pillow. Jay knew that when his brother was upset it was best to leave him alone but this was different, this was to do with both of them.

Ved didn’t hear anyone entering his room, properly because he was crying to loud, it wasn’t until he felt someone sitting down onto his bed and placing a reassuring hand onto his shoulder that he realised someone else was with him.
No words past between the brothers, as Ved pushed himself up into a sitting position and moved into his brothers open arms. Since hearing about the virus this was the first time Ved had felt save, with his head resting against his brother’s chest, listing to his brother’s heart pump gently within his chest and with Jays muscular arm’s holding him tight, protecting him for all harm.
Jay moved his hands gently up and down his brothers back in the way which his mother used to do to him when he was upset. Looking down at his brother, Jay wanted to say something that would make his brother feel better but there was nothing he could say that would make the world they now lived in any better and even if he tried he wouldn’t know if he could trust his own voice not cracking. Ved’s eyes were begging for Jay to do something, anything that would take away the emptiness and Jay did the only thing he knew that he was good at…kissing. Leaning down, Jay pressed his lips up against his brothers and for that one moment both brothers felt that everything was going to be ok…that no matter what the world was about to throw at them they would always have each other and nothing was going to break them apart…but that moment was suddenly broken when Jay realised what he was doing.

“Ved,” he breathed heavily, “That…what happened just then, shouldn’t have just happened,”

“I know,” Ved snapped, pushing himself of the bed, “and it will never happen again cause if you try and kiss me again I’ll tell dad when he comes home!”

What Ved hadn’t come to realise and what Jay had known the moment their father had walked out on them was that their dad was not coming back, cause like many other adults he was scared of what was going on.

Two:

The second time it happened, Ved was very drunk. It was a week after their mother had died and Ved decided to hold his very own private wake for his mum. He had taken all the drink for his father’s drink cardboard before locking himself in his room planning to drink the whole lot, he hadn’t planned for his older brother to get back from his girlfriends house during this.
Hearing a knock at his bedroom, a drunken Ved slammed his fists back onto the door as he dropped onto the floor with a can of beer resting in one of his hands.

“Go away Jay,” Ved shouted, banging his free hand against the door.

“Don’t be stupid Ved, I’m your brother, there is no way I’m gunna leave you,” Jay replied on the other side in a calm manner.

“You can stay there all you want,” Ved answered back with a small laugh, “Just don’t think you’re going to get in,”

“I wasn’t planning to!”

“Well….good”

The two brothers sat in silence for what seemed like hours, one on either side of the door, and it wasn’t until Ved started crying, that Jay realised he really needed to get into his brothers room and comfort the younger blonde.

“Ved,” Jay whispered, resting his head on the white door, “I know you don’t what to talk about…”

“Why did she have to die?” Ved’s voice cut in passing through the door, “Why did dad leave us?”

“I don’t know,” Jay simply replied, he wish he knew why everything was changing so he could explain it to his brother like he was meant to, “I guess things can’t stay the same forever,”

Ved pushed himself up from the floor and unlocked his bedroom door, kicking empty bottles and cans out of the way, as he pulled the door opened he was expecting his brother to have a go at him, call him stupid and that he needed to grow up but Jay didn’t. He simply pulled the crying Ved into his arms and gently rocked him.

“Will you leave me?” Ved questioned

”God no…I promise, I will never leave you,” Jay replied, feeling tears building up in his own dark eyes.

”I’m so scared Jay,” the younger blonde cried.

“You’re not the only one,” Jay whispered as he pulled away from the tight embrace, “thing’s aren’t going to be the same anymore, you understand that right Ved?”

“I’m not stupid Jay,” Ved frowned, he didn’t need to be telling that the world was changing, he saw it everyday on the news, the dead being burnt in large fields.

“I know that, you’re the smartest kid I know,” Jay smiled wiping the tears from Ved’s face.

“Take the pain away Jay…please,” Ved begged, resting his check in his brothers hand, “Make me forget,”

”How?” Jay question, ready to do anything to help his brother forget the broken world and pain he felt.

“Kiss me again,” Ved asked, looking at his brother straight in the eyes, “Please Jay,”

Jay knew that Ved was drunk, he knew that after Ved had some sleep he would forget the whole thing, so one little kiss wouldn’t hurt. Pulling his brother closer, Jay pressed his lips up against Ved’s and as their lips moved together; Jay could feel Ved relaxing under his grip.

Three:

The third time they kissed it was a lot sweeter and both boys wanted to kiss each other, it had been a month since they left their home, they was now staying at Jay’s girlfriend’s house with her and some of their friends, it was the first tribe they had belonged too.
Jay shared a room with Sara and Ved was sharing the front room with some of the younger members of the tribe, Ved had claimed the sofa before anyone else had the chance to, so out of the others he always had the best sleep but tonight he was on guard duty, which meant he had to sit on the bottom step which faced the front door just encase anyone tried to break in. The only thing Ved liked about guard duty was that Jay would always come and sit with him and the two boys would be able to talk without any of the other tribe members cutting in.
As Ved settled down for the night watch, he brought his sleeping bag further up his body and placed the mug of hot chocolate a couple of steps above him, holding tightly to the baseball bat, Ved listened to the quietness which spread throughout the house and the street outside.

“Having fun?” Jay asked, as he made his way down the stairs with a blanket drabbed over his shoulders.

“I don’t understand the point, all the bigger tribes have moved into the city’s cause unlike us, they know there is nothing left here,” Ved replied as he moved over to allow his brother to sit next to him.

”Yea well, I would rather be here then in the city, wouldn’t you?” the older blonde explained, as he wrapped the blanket tighter around himself.

“I dunno Jay, some of those bigger tribes have a lot more to offer then a sofa,” Ved grinned as a yawn escaped from his lips.

“Tired?” Jay questioned

“Just a bit,” the younger blonde replied

“Go to sleep I’ll take over,” Jay explained.

“You sure?” Ved asked as he pulled his sleeping bag further up so only his arms, top of chest and head where showing.

“Just go to sleep Ved,” Jay smiled.

“Thanks,” Ved smiled back, before he reached out and traced his brother’s jaw line with one of his hands.

“Don’t,” Jay whispered as he pulled away.

“Shh,” Ved whispered back as one of his fingers hovered over Jay’s lips. Unzipping his sleeping bag with his other hand, Ved moved closed to the older blonde and his hand moved from Jay’s lips to the side of his head, “Just one kiss!”

For the first time, Ved placed a small kiss on his brother’s lips, just a small kiss that allowed him to taste his brother’s lips, the lips that somehow always made the pain go away. As Ved’s hand travelled down to Jay’s bare chest, he’s throat suddenly became dry, his trousers became tighter around his crouch area, his palms became sweaty and even thought he knew it was wrong, he couldn’t help but roughly press his lips against his brothers.
As Ved deepened the kiss, a small moan escaped from Jay, as one of his hands gripped at his brother’s blonde hair and the other snaked around his smaller waist.

“Stay with me tonight,” Ved moaned into his brother’s mouth.

“No question!” Jay replied as Ved’s hand slipped under his brothers boxers.

Four:

“I’m sorry Jay,” Ved whispered as a placed a reassuring hand on his brother’s shoulder.

“It’s my fault,” Jay shouted shaking Ved’s hand, “It’s my fault she’s dead!”

“Don’t be stupid,” Ved replied, this time placing hand on both of Jay’s shoulder’s.

“Don’t you dare call me stupid,” Jay shouted, spinning around so that he now faced his younger brother, before slamming Ved into the wall behind him.

“Calm down Jay,” Ved cried in pain as Jay pinned him up against the wall.

“I don’t need to calm down,” Jay spat. Turning his head to the side he stared at the body of his dead girlfriend lying in the back ally before turning back to Ved, “make it better Ved, help me forget!”

“No…” Ved started to reply but before he could protest, Jay had already pressed his lips up against Ved’s and bit down on Ved’s lower lip causing it to bleed.

Pulling one of his hands free from Jay’s grip, Ved mustered all the strength he had and smacked his fist into the side of Jay’s face, causing the older blonde to stagger back. A look of shock filled Jay’s eyes as he placed a hand onto his check and watched as the blood trickled down from Ved’s lip.

“Ved,” Jay whispered with tears in his eyes, “I’m so sorry”

“I forgive you,” Ved whispered as he moved forward and pulled his older brother into a tight embrace, “I will always forgive you!”

Five:

The last time Jay and Ved kissed was the day Jay saw his brother change due to Ram. They had been members of the Techno’s for the past six months and due to both their talents they moved up the ranks faster then any other members of the tribe.
Jay noticed that Ved was becoming cruller and he was keeping more to himself, they weren’t as close as they used to be.

“Ved can we talk?” Jay asked as he stepped into his brothers room.

”What is it Jay? I’ve got a lot of work to do before the planes take off tomorrow morning,” Ved replied not taking his eyes of the computer screen in front of him.

“It’s just that we don’t spend time together anymore,” Jay explained as he sat himself on Ved’s bed, “You know before we joined the Techno’s we used to talk about everything,”

“Yea well I have more important things to do then talk about our feelings,” the younger blonde replied as he typed away at the computer.

Reaching out, Jay grabbed the back of Ved’s chair and spun him around so that they were now facing each other.

“Fine let’s talk,” Ved replied as he let out a sigh and rolled his eyes.

“I don’t like you spending too much time with Ram, that’s all brother,” Jay explained.

“Like you can talk,” Ved laughed, “Your Ram’s right hand man and you’re telling me not to spend so much time with him,”

“You’re younger then me…”

“Don’t you dare play that card on me Jay,” Ved shouted as he turned back to face his computer, “Your just scared that Ram will see that I’m better then you!”

“Not likely little bro,” Jay snapped as he spun Ved around again, this time he grabbed Ved by the shoulders so that he wasn’t able to spin back around.

“Jay get off me,” Ved cried out

“I’ll I’m saying is watch yourself, ok?” Jay whispered as he pulled the chair closer to him.

“Fine…I will,” Ved replied, “just get off me,”

Jay removed his hands before he pushed himself up and made to leave the room when he felt Ved’s hand land on his shoulder.

“Good luck in the city,” Ved whispered before he pressed his lips up against Jay’s for what he didn’t know would be the last time, cause neither of them knew that when they took control of the next city everything was going to change and the promise Jay made to his younger brother, that he would never leave him, was one he couldn’t keep once he laid eyes on Ebony.

*~Fin~*

Been soooo long

Thu, 25 Oct 2007 19:35:23 GMT

Wooh its been so long since I last posted something and I have so much to say but so little time to say it in and if I did say everything I wanted to say I would properly poor half of you to sleep. Now the reason why I havent posted lately is because of my new full time job, I now work in a day nursery as a Pre-School Nursery Nurse and I can not explain to you guys how much I love my job. It doesn't really bother me that I'm now working 8.30 to 6 monday to friday every week or that I only get 30 min lunch break (Although an hour would be a lot better lol) Everyone at work is amazing and I can't believe how well iI get on with each other, work really isn't work its more like play lol...I do work hard though. Although I work in Pre-School, I love working with the toddlers they are soo fun and sooo much cuter, lol there is even a baby at work who thinks I am his dad and when Ever I put him down or walk away from him, he throws a huge paddy and calls "Da-da" after me...it doesnt help that I think he is the cutiest baby EVER.

The most weirdest thing happened to me the other day at work, so I had just sat the Pre-Schoolers and Toddlers down to watch a film while they waited for their parentes to pick them up, when one of the Toddlers staff asked me what I was doing that night and I explained that I was going to watch my fav TV program (The Tribe :D) and that she properly hasn't heard of it, she then asked me what it was and when I said The Tribe her jaw dropped to the ground before screaming "What with Lex, Ebony and Bray," and I was like "Ya-Ha, you heard of it then," and we spent the rest of the time talking about the tribe and then she begged me to lend her the tribe CD's and told me how she was going to buy all 5 seasons on DVD when we next get paid.

So The Tribe Sector 4, Season 2 is finally out and I honestly can not believe how much I suck at acting lol...I now totally understand why my drama teacher in school told me it wouldn't be in my best interest to do Drama GCSE :P I'm in such a tribe mood at the moment that I can't stop thinking about it and I'm thinking about writing a new tribe fic which is set in a AU in which Jack is being abused at home and the only person who he can turn to is a guy at his school (Ved) who he trully dislikes but in the end falls in love with him..all together now...AWWW :P

Dante's Cove....anyone seen it? You kow the program with a lot of gay sex in it? Well I've seen the first episode and I'm not sure what I think of it, I mean it's a good storyline but the one thing that bugs me the most is how some of the cast really can't act and it looks like they only got the parts because of their looks.

Anyway before i bore you all to death I got one more thing to say before I go, which is....it's nearly XMAS :D :D :D

X~X~X~X

Out into the big wide world

Thu, 02 Aug 2007 20:31:45 GMT

I have now finished college YAY. . .and i passed which is an even bigger YAY :D

So the last couple of weeks I havent been up to much apart from doing over time at work and also applying for full time work. It was well cool at work today because I got a phone call from my work placement superviser and she told me that a manager at a nursery which I have applied for a job before at...didnt get it because I hadnt finished college at a time..well they have another job going now and they want me to reapply for it, so I have an interview on wednesday and hopefully will get the job *fingers crossed*

Si X

JM speaks about his role in Torchwood.

Tue, 17 Jul 2007 22:46:16 GMT

HEHE so while I was on BBC website I came across this:

"Marsters, who played Spike in Buffy the Vampire Slayer, said he was "a big fan" of the Doctor Who spin-off. Filming for the new Torchwood series is currently under way in Cardiff.

The alien-chasing series, starring John Barrowman and Eve Myles, is expected to be shown in 2008 and Marsters is set to guest star in the first episode.

The actor, who starred as a goth vampire in both the cult US series Buffy and its spin-off Angel, said he was "really excited" about his character.

"I can't say too much about him, except he is naughty and a bit of a psychopath," he said. "

I am a huge fan of Doctor Who and Torchwood so it was me who knocked on their door."

And this amazing picture:

HOW EXCITING...I so can not wait for season 2 to start

Week in London

Wed, 04 Jul 2007 23:04:13 GMT

Wow what a week it’s been, I travelled up to London on the Saturday where I met some of the sector 4 cast and we filmed some of the scenes. To start with I was really nervous, like really nervous, but after awhile it became better. From there my brother took me back to his. This is where I would be staying for the time during my stay in London. He was living in a squatters home with four other people…start rant here. I hated it, it really wasn’t the nicest place, there was no hot water, no place for me to have a shower, to be honest it was just gross.

The second day came in and we realised we were down one cast member so his character and mine were rolled into one…boy was I confused. During this day all our indoor scenes were filmed.

Monday night I had an argument with my older brother, he kept trying to turn me into a vegetarian, which I wasn’t having.

Tuesday brought the last whole day of filming, as well as my parents booking me a ticket for Wicked that night.

And oh my god Wicked was just amazing; it was the best musical I have ever seen. I have never been so hyped up about something for a long time. I had a great seat and was happily singing along by myself :p

Wednesday brought on the last day of filming, it was kinda sad as we all got on really well. Once the last scenes were filmed a few more pictures were taken and we packed up and grabbed the tube :D

I hope you all like the end product of Sector 4

Sector 4

Fri, 29 Jun 2007 18:41:18 GMT

Tomorrow I'm off to London to take part in The Uk Tribe Project Sector 4...I'm playing the part of Drake who is a new guy this season..I'm not going to give anything away apart him...if you can't work out who I am when you watch it..I'll be the one who can't act LOL. It also means I won't be online until wednesday night, which is when I get back.

:D

It's a sad, sad tribe day :(

Thu, 28 Jun 2007 19:58:16 GMT

So on Thursday 12th July 2007 The Tribe BB is being closed down...FOREVER :O but threre is good news a new board has already been opened by cloud 9 but it just isnt the same. Hopefully the new board will be as good as the old BB once was..so all you old bb guys who left and havent come back come to the new board :D

4 new drabbles

Wed, 27 Jun 2007 20:52:39 GMT

So after a whole week of doing college work my head has been full of ideas bursting to get out so I present you with 4 drabbles which can be found under the cut...h and I should warn you 3 of them are slash :D. In other news on sat I'm going to London to take part in The Tribe Uk Project: Sector 4 season 2, I soo can not wait :D

Drabbles:

The Tribe x 2
The Newsies x 1
Doctor Who x 1

Tribe:

Tell me it’s not true:

As soon as Jay stepped into the mall he could tell that something wasn’t right. The Mall which was normally full of noise was silent it was like someone had turned the volume of a TV right down. Making he’s way up the stairs towards the café he could see member’s of this tribe look towards him as they heard his feet hit the cold steps, each held a face which told a thousand stories. Reaching the café, he find the Mallrats gathered around something, something which they were blocking out of his sight.

“I’m sorry,” Amber whispered breaking the silence before herself and Lex moved out of the way allowing Jay see what they were all gathered around.

It was like someone had hit him hard across his face and he wasn’t sure how to react, he wasn’t sure if it was some kind of sick joke but as his eyes turned away from the body to look at his fellow mallrats he knew it was true. He wasn’t aware he had even started crying until he could taste the saltiness of his tears on his lips. Slowly making his way towards the body, Jay slowly lowed himself next to his lover. Reaching out Jay ran his hand across Jack’s cold check and it was that moment it hit him…Jack was dead.

Cry:

No one knew that he cried, no one knew that once darkness had filled the mall, he would run a knife across the softness of his young arm and watch as the blood dripped from his arm while the tears fell from his eyes. No one knew that ever since Ellie had walked out of his life he felt empty and the only way which he felt alive was when the knife broke his pale skin. No one knew that Jack had a secret which was destroying him.

The Newsies:

The Kid’s aren’t all right:

Spot could feel the anger building up inside him, he could feel himself clenching his fists digging his fingernails into his own flash and sending pain through his body, but it was nothing compared to what Race was going to feel once he had finished with him. Pushing himself up, Spot made his way out of the saloon and followed the fading figure of Race down the darkened street. Finally catching up to Race, Spot ran the last few paces between them before grabbing Race by the shirt and spinning him around before bringing his already clenched fist into contact with Race’s jaw.

“Never walk away from me again,” Spot spat as he pushed Race against the nearest wall.

“Or what?” Race replied with blood running down his chin, bringing his face as close as he could to Spot’s

”Or ill..” Spot started to reply before he firmly pushed his lips up against Race’s. Biting down on Race’s lower lip as they parted, the shorter of the two guys could taste the blood on his own lips. Giving Race a small grin, Spot turned away from the other guy to make his way back to the saloon.

“You never told me what you would do?” Race called after him.

“You’re just have to wait and find out,” Spot shouted back, with a set grin on his face and the taste of Race still running through him.

Doctor Who:

Not Ricky

Jake knew that Mickey wasn’t Ricky; it wasn’t like he was stupid or anything but the way Mickey smiled at him when he said some dumb comment reminded him of the way Ricky used to smile at him before he leaned in for a kiss. The way Mickey walked out of the bathroom with the towel loosely wrapped around his waist showing off his toned torso reminded him of the way Ricky used to come out of the shower before pulling Jake back in with him. The way Mickey kissed his neck reminded him of the way Ricky did it, but it wasn’t Ricky it was Mickey.

James Marsters

Mon, 18 Jun 2007 22:37:19 GMT

How very exciting...well for Torchwood fans that is. James is going to play a guest role in Torchwood. Isn't it exciting like I told you :D

Sat night was amazing got very drunk and got home very late lol...I'm pretty scared now I only have two weeks left at college before I finish and I'm still pretty far behind ooops

Army Night

Sat, 16 Jun 2007 08:43:45 GMT

So it's my mates 20th birthday today and tonight we're going to town to get wasted :D...plus we're dressing up lol how funny. Me and two of my friends are going as army people...the only thing wrong with that is we don't think they will let toy guys into the club :(. Some of my other mates are going as playboy bunnies, fairies and god know what else.

Also there was a huge spider in my room last night which meant I couldn't sleep so I had to move into the spare from for the night lol

:D

4 Tribe drabbles

Wed, 13 Jun 2007 19:14:47 GMT

I can't remember if I've posted these here before so heres 3 very short drabbles based on the tribe. Two of them do contain slash...but with me what do you expect? lol

Obsession Darryl/Ram

Darryl wasn’t sure when his obsession for Ram had started, maybe it was when Ram had walked into the Saloon topless and gave him a small smile or maybe it was when he watched the man grieve for the death of his women and turned to Darryl for comfit. For what ever reason for, he was grateful because his obsession turned to want, from want to lust and to lust and finally to have.

Walking into the Saloon topless, with his chest covered in a layer of his own sweat, for the second time that month, Ram grinned at Darryl who was sitting at the bar, before he strolled over to his lower and sat himself on top of Darryl before pulling his lover into a hot kiss.

Jealousy Jack/Lex

Seeing Jack talk to Bray, and Bray touching him every now and then, sent shivers running through his body. His hatred for Bray grew stronger and his lust for the geek Jack grew stronger. He wasn’t normally a jealous type but when Bray was touching the one thing he wanted he couldn’t help but feel jealous.

Storming over to the two boys, he grabbed the red head by his shirt and dragged him down the corridor until he flung Jack into a cupboard. Shutting the door behind them, he pinned the confused Jack up against the door with one hand before his other hand slowly traced Jack’s jaw line. Leaning forward he pressed his lips up against Jack’s unprepared lips. Begging for entry, he ran his tongue over Jack’s teeth before he was granted access. Just as Jack was getting into the kiss and feeling his face flush up, his kisser pulled away biting down on Jack’s lower lip first.

“Lex…” Jack breathed heavily, “What was…that for?”

A thousand lights Cloe/Sammy

As the city was illuminated by a thousand lights which had been dead since the power was cut when the virus had first struck a feeling run through Cloe’s body lighting up every part of her. Letting out a small laugh, Cloe grabbed the nearest person to her and pressed her purple lips up against theirs. When the stranger kissed back and their hands started to ran over her legs, Cloe suddenly realised what she was doing and pulled away.

“Wow,” Sammy stuttered, “that was just brill,” he grinned.

“Meh,” Cloe replied regretting kissing the younger guy, “I’ve had better,”

“so out of ten then?” the younger mallrat quested.

“Nine,” Cloe whispered before leaning forward a placing a small kiss on his cheek, “but never again!”

Wishing and dreaming Amber

As the boat slowly moved away from the city, the place in which she called home, Amber clutched her sleeping son tightly to her chest, scared that if she was to place him down she would break down and cry. The events of the past couple of days still hadn’t registered in her mind and she wasn’t ready to accept them or wanted to. She wished she could go back to the time when she didn’t know about the Techno’s and the time when she believed that her lover, Bray, was still alive.

She wished she was still able to believe that he was out there looking her her and their child but she knew the truth now, she knew that he had been deleted a long time ago by the Techno’s. Maybe he was doing something stupid liking trying to free the other prisoners or maybe he was being experienced on, like she was but something went wrong which got him deleted. She wished she got the opportunity to say good bye to him and to explain to him how much she loved him and how amazing their son was. There was so much that she wished for but wishing doesn’t make it happen and believing in empty dreams where games only fools played but she had seen the light, from now on she would no longer wish for Bray back and she would no longer keep her dream alive.

Doctor who fans/Writers

Tue, 12 Jun 2007 18:12:22 GMT

I'm looking for writers who will be up for helping me to write a 15 episode season called Bad Wolf which is a Doctor who spin off. If you wanna help please reply to this.

Simon

Shit Scared

Mon, 11 Jun 2007 22:50:30 GMT

So tomorrow I have to give a presentation about Sudden Infant Death Sydrome and how smoking effects this...its quarter to midnight and I'm still typing away. I've hjad all year to plan this as well as carry out my research, which I did but I totally forgot we had to give out a presentation as well.

I must admit I'm not scared about doing it in front of my class as there are only 12 people in it now compared to the 25 which started but still...this is the one thing I've never been good at.

Anyway if I'm not back on tomorrow it means my tutor got very mad at me for not doing it right and locked me in her car...I really don't get on with this women lol.

xx

Can I keep you? (FanFiction)

Mon, 11 Jun 2007 07:16:50 GMT

Check me out 2 updates in two weeks :D What can I say I finally found some to sart writing again....sure it's only a very short fic, but I enjoyed writing it and there will be more fics based around the couple.

The Fic I'm about to post is slash (well duh) and is about two ex-Contestants in the UK BBC Program Any Dream Will D, which is Muscial contest to find the next Joseph...sadly it finished last week, witrh out either one of these guys winning.

Wtch this vdeo of the two boys doing their song together a couple of weeks ago from the Musical Starlight Express.

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=f0gVkf2YcDo

Ben is the one who starts the song, and they are both amazing in this song. My fic takes place after the show in which this preformance took place in.

Anyway heres the small fic I've wrote and I hope you all like it.

Can I keep you?

In the presents of his own room back at the Joseph house, Ben let his guard down. Bending down to pick up his suitcase from under his bed, Andrew’s words echoed in his head.

“I’m going to save…Lewis!”

“Lewis!”

As his best friends name repeated in his head, Ben could feel his anger build up, once again Lewis had beat him at something and it wasn’t just something small like a computer game, it was his dream. His best friend had destroyed his dream and it wasn’t something Ben was going to forgive soon.

Feeling a presence behind him, the young brunette was expecting to be faced by his blonde ex best friend but turning around he was surprised to find the young Scot, Keith standing in his doorway with his head resting against the doorframe and fresh tears running down his clean shaven face.

Giving his friend a small smile and a slow shake of his head, Ben closed the distance between the two of them, reaching out with both his hands he slowly wiped the tears of Keith’s face, allowing one of his fingers to rest awhile on the shorter guy’s lips.

“It’s ok,” he whispered not sure if he was comforting himself or Keith.

“No…not really,” Keith replied pushing himself up from the doorframe and covering one of Ben’s hands with his own.

“Don’t!” Ben explained his voice no louder then a whisper. Removing his hands from Keith’s soft face, Ben turned away from his friend and carried on with his packing. After a moment of silence, Ben let out a sigh of relief as he felt Keith’s arms slip around his waist and then Keith’s head rest on his shoulder.

All the anger, Ben had built up towards Lewis seamed to slip away as he let himself relax against Keith’s body.

“Can I keep you?” Keith whispered, his voice sending shivers up Ben’s spine.

“Always,” Ben replied, turning around in Keith’s arm and placing a soft kiss on Keith’s awaiting lips.

~FIN~

So guys what did you think of it?

19th birthday

Thu, 07 Jun 2007 22:54:54 GMT

YAY so I'm now 19...and once again I stopped posting on here. ooops

I'm really annoyed with myself at the moment I know I should be spending all my time doing my coursework as I finish college in three weeks but my head is full d ideas of new fics I wanna write...grrrr

Much luv si x

It's over

Sun, 25 Feb 2007 21:08:50 GMT

So I've been a member for around 4 years of the tribe bb and now I've been deleted....its all kinda sad really. I mean I never stepped a toe out of line or anything.

All my art is gone (i have it all saved but thats not the point)
My stories (Which I didnt save all of them)
Season 6: he deleted all the episodes I've posted

It's a sad day

Update

Mon, 19 Feb 2007 18:17:28 GMT

I'v now decided that from now on I would update my jounal at least one a week and let you all know whats been going on in my little life.

I'll start with something good, on thursday I saw Chicago which was just amazing and I haven't been able to turn the soundtrack off since i brought it. Jennifer Ellison, who was Meg in the film version of Phantom of the Opera and a star of a british soap called Brookside, played the role of Roxie Hart. She was amazing.
One of the dancers dropped his hat in the first song, which still makes me laugh when i think about it. The only thing which put a damper on the show was this old couple sitting behind me and arging about loosing their program and applying that someone had stole it, but luckerly they moved seats during the interval.
So in all I would give Chicago 5/5 and I would so go and see it again
I'm also going to book my tickets for Starlight express when I get paid as it is playing for two weeks in march at the mayflower. This is my all ime fav musical, I mean I've only seen it once but I've had the soundtrack since like the age of 14.

In very bad news, I think my mobile phone is broken as it keeps freezing on me, but I think I was able to fix it for awhile by throwing it against a wall. My parents told me they would lend me the money for a new phone but i would have to pay them back, which I don't really mind.

I also brought the Torchwood books this week and I've only started reading the first one "Another life" its pretty good but I'm sure it will get better when I read more of it. I've also just ordered three new CDs. Avenue Q and Wicked and also a new copy of Rent as my other copy got kinda broken :s

My parents decided it was time to give me the talk about Money and saving and they think I should give them £100 each month when I get paid so I don't spend it all at once. I can't help but spend my money, I see something and I want it, it's not til after I buy it that I think it might of been a bad idea. A lot of my money tho goes on drink, i do admit that when I go out clubbing with my friends I'm the one who alway spends the most money :(

I watched Brokeback Mountain the other night on my own, which was just stupid as it made me all depressed and I wasn't in the mood to do anything else but after watching an episode of Buffy (him) I was soon in a better mood.

LOL I don't think there is anything more to say but if there is I'm sure its not important :P

Waste of time

Sat, 10 Feb 2007 01:09:36 GMT

So 2night me mates invited me out to this houe party and I was like sure why not. So we went to a club first cause it was free entry and free drinks till 11 (How amazing) after a 10.15 we had a proper treck up to this guys house. We get there are there is like 6 people cause everyone else has f offed. We get invited to this house party and they all just f off into the garden and leave us standing in the living room without even talking to us....so we make the long treck back to town after telling them where to go and go to the home taven. I can normaly get in, I mean i was in there last night and 2night they wouldnt let me in, by then i was proper stressed and proper steaming, so now I'm back home after wasting my whole f night. grrrrr

On a happier note i've got an interview at Surry Uni woohoo

Wicked Ice

Fri, 26 Jan 2007 16:42:01 GMT

On the way to the pre-school which i work at, i slipped on some ice and made a complete fool out of myself :P I didn't realise how icy it was until I slipped on it haha. I had to go to pre-school with mud all over my jeans.

I'm still trying to convice my parents to take me to London to see Wicked, I even offfered to pay for the tickets, cause unlike them I don't mind paying £55 for front row seats in the circle. So hopefully I will be going to see it in the next couple of weeks :D

Even Though You're Gone

Wed, 24 Jan 2007 18:38:56 GMT

I've just made some art for my new fanfic. Just two small sneek previews of two new chareters I will be introducing

19th birthday

Tue, 23 Jan 2007 16:44:23 GMT

So its like anohter six months until my 19th but my friends and me have already decided what we are going to do for it. We're going out on the town as skool kidz starting as early as we can and getting home the lastest we can the next morning :D

it will properly be the last time I will go out with my friends for a long time as I'm applying for camp USA, so won't be around during the summer and then I'll be off for Uni (If i get in) when I get back from the USA.

I compelety dazed out today at college, one min I'm writing about The Moden Welfare state then the next I'm thinking about how I'm going to move my tribe fic on...it was really weird cause for the next half hour all I was doing was staring into space and thinking about the tribe. I was pretty lucky my tutor had decided she had some paper work to do in her office :P

Pimp myt LJ

Mon, 22 Jan 2007 20:59:39 GMT

I've just realised, well not just realised cause that would make me pretty stupid, but I've kinda just realised my LJ looks like poo. What more can I say. I'm not sure how I can make it look better, so is there anyone out there who could help me make it look lovely and everything...I'll even give you some fresh baked cookies if you help *puppy dog eyes*....pretty please

Work Placement

Mon, 08 Jan 2007 00:17:59 GMT

Ahhh, so tomorrow morning is my first day working on the children's ward for my block placement. I'm well scared but excited at the same time. The one thing I don't want to happen is for a child to die while I'm there...not that I want a child to die any other time.

I went out last night and got really drunk, didn't get home til 4 in the morning and had work at 10. The only problem was i slept in till 10.30 and I was the one who was meant to open up the shop.